At What Price

I started Lynparza Tuesday night. I had some side effects but thought in time they would get better. But today, Saturday, I feel as if I am as sick as when I was on chemo. I woke up with a headache and nausea which got worse after I took my next dose. I took a zofran and went back to bed.

I got up around one and made some oatmeal. It’s sitting pretty well but I still don’t feel great. A bit better but not great.

I have heard that it can take a few weeks for the symptoms to subside, although for some people they never do. I debate whether to be patient, ask for a lower dose or call it quits. I want more than anything to remain cancer free, but I want a life. I haven’t left the house in the last two days because I feel so crummy.

I will message my oncologist and hope to talk to her during the week. My guess is she will have some ideas. I will continue to take the Lynparza for now, and hope things get better. This is not how I want to live.

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