Bumped

I was enrolled in a Hopkins study for psylocibin for PTSD and I was pretty stoked. I had my fourth screening interview yesterday and got the bad news today-- I am no longer eligible for the trial.

I admit-- I'm pretty bummed. I was one of those kids in the seventies who did her share of drugs, but never psychedelics. Too scary. But this would be two sessions in a controlled environment.

Maybe it's because EMDR is working quite well for me my PTSD is not stressful enough for this study. So that's a good thing.

I found a great therapist who is helping me work through all kinds of crap. And if I had been accepted in the study I would have had to take a break from my therapy sessions, so perhaps this rejection is really for the better.

My disappointment is not about having the psylocibin erase my PTSD; it's about not getting to do the drug.

Some day, psychedelics may become part of treatment for a host of disorders, and Hopkins is doing a number of studies using them.

There is a lot of belief, backed by research, that psychedelics work well for a number of people. But for me, talk therapy and EMDR are working incredibly well, so I will continue with my sessions. Through them, I am learning to not just accept what happened to me, but I am learning so much about myself and how I deal aith others and the world at large.

Probably more than I would have gotten out of two psylocibin sessions.