Trauma Revisited

A friend told me about a series on Netflix about the four specialized Trauma Units in London, one of which is at King's College Hospital, where I was treated. She wasn't sure if I should watch it, so of course, I did.

As I watched there was a little bit of triggering, a tad of envy, and a lot of understanding.

The surgeons at these centers are nothing short of amazing. And just like my experience, they all introduced themselves to their patients using their first names. Talk about de-deification! One human,speaking to another, assuring them that they would do everything they could to help that person return to as close to a normal life as possible.

Just like me, many of the patients in the series had brain injuries. For me, those patients produced the most PTSD in me. It is hard for me not to wonder what kind of longterm effect my brain bleeds had. My memory is not what it used to be, and at times I struggle to come up with a word. But I'm old, have had more anesthesia than anyone should have, as well as suffering a bike crash or two. So yeah, I know I'm lucky if that is the extent of what those brain bleeds left me, but maybe they actually had no effect. Who knows.

I watched one case with great interest. A young man had a motorcycle crash, and his foot and ankle were badly damaged. Those surgeons worked so hard to get blood flow back in his foot. They performed painstaking microsurgery on the veins and arteries. Then they waited. And just like me, they could not restore blood flow, and they amputated his leg above his ankle but well below his knee.

That's where the envy came in. Oh, to have a knee on my right leg! The things he could do literally weeks after his surgery. Things I will never again be able to do. My leg was broken above my knee, and the surgeons were absolute miracle workers who saved as much of my leg as they could. But yeah, I am a bit envious of below the knee amputees.

A friend of Jerry's who is a physician told him I was at one of the top trauma centers in the world. I don't doubt that. So while the series had its moments of difficulty and envy for me, mostly what I felt was gratefulness. While I can't do everything I could do before my accident, I have accomplished so much. Every day I get stronger, I walk further, my balance gets better, and I even amaze myself at how far I have come, and I know I'm not done.

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